Thursday, April 21, 2016

Styling Stories: Roses and Denim

Who are we?
We define us by colour, physique, abilities.
We are artists, thinkers, belivers, expressionists, each of us.
Young, curious, wise, experienced. Human.
I found my center.

I am me and myself.

The denim is rough from the adventures,
on the contrary are the fully bloomed roses swifting with the flowiness of the skirt,
their velvety surface repel the sturdy fibres of the jacket,
but the contradictional differences are all characteristic. Me.

 We are like little roses in a big shrub - each flower blooming with beauty,
seemingly the same on the exterior.
But every blossom, every swirl is different. Same nature, but never alike.
This is truly uniqueness.



Sending some positive vibes in the middle of the week.
Today was one of those sunny days where the sky was so blue and deep like an endless ocean without any cloudy waves that could disturb the sight. All I wanted to do was to sit there and feel the warmth on the sunlight behind my closed eyes for an eternity of five minutes. But of course, nothing lasts forever.
I am really looking forward to recharge my sleeping levels this weekend.

What are you the most excited for this week?
Weekend is almost here, hang on !

Monday, April 18, 2016

Monthly breather: March of Confusion

Hello loves!
A little late with my monthly breather, but right now I actually do have a moment for a breather, so better late than never ;)

 If there is one word that could sum up my feelings in March it would be confusion.
Coming back from Asia after over half a year I found myself being in that awkward state where seemingly not much has changed at home, but at the same time a lot has changed.

I was confused about finding my own daily rhythm.
I was confused about work.
I was confused about my future. ( Actually I think this is something I will always be confused about..)

And eventhough I was not expecting a completely new perspective of home, that's exactly what I got: little mini revolutions in daily life, that sometimes gave me the feeling of being someone still living in the past. That feeling of people moving on while I was still the same Me six months ago was filling me with excitement and curiosity when looking at the future, but also the fear of being left behind.

But I changed as well.

Homesickness while being at home was truly a very new experience, I was missing the amazing people I met during my time in China, the feeling of the truly truly rushing city, the mentality and just the feeling of finally belonging somewhere. It's weird because all of these things I have here at home as well. What I heard about experiences other friends made when they studied a year abroad was that the worst part about coming "home" again is the slump of emptiness you will fall right in and now I really do understand what that means.

I am always scared of new beginnings and in March I was picking up my passion for dancing again. If there is be something that makes me jump out of bed in the morning, it would be the latest dance class, these are the moments during the week where I can just forget about the long hours of working and dissatisfactions of everyday life. And although I have plenty to improve again, I still love every second of it.

Closing this monthly breather, March is the beginning of spring and with that I look forward to new exciting memories.

Currently, I'm working on my next Styling Story and I am never sure if this kind of stuff is interesting to read about, but since this blog also has its function of sort of a little diary, I guess it's fine.  And if you have come so far reading this, I really appreciate it!!

What do you look forward to in spring?

Have a nice week!!

Monday, April 11, 2016

About self-doubt and why you should be more confident starting NOW

Lately I've been wondering about 
what the ties consist of,
that have been choking my voice and my actions.
Sometimes the head gets messy,
It's almost like drowning,
in the crashing floods of self-doubt.

Hello loves,

Something that has been on my mind a lot is the fact that I admire confidence. I really do admire those, that seem to know what they are doing and just rock it.
It seems so easy to walk through life, being certain about oneself and succeed at anything on the long-run. But during that process, self-doubt is a constant companion. It is hard to stay motivated when I know I'm not good (enough) at something or just being stuck and wanting to move on.
It is so contradictional to find confidence at the same place, where self-doubt originates, but the best way to stay confident is to draw the energy from oneself, so I listed some thoughts.

1. Break free.Embrace your own weirdness. You are you, unique and like no one else. There is a reason why we were created by the Almighty each person differently. Self doubt is often triggered by the environment. Break free from peer pressure, break free from society's pressure and back up yourself. Why wasting your time with holding back, if you act like your Original You, right things will fall in place naturally.When you are happy, you are confident.

2. Don't forget to care for yourself.
No need to say yes to anything just to not hurt the other person, he will understand. Sometimes you have to make that extra time for yourself. Experience things just by yourself and do things you love, any passion, sporty, hobby or activity. Creating self-love requires time alone. Get more comfortable alone. How do you expect yourself to feel confident in your own skin if you cannot spent time on your own?
 3. Don't forget that people are dealing with their own sh't.
There are so many situiations in the present, past and future, where other people make you feel inferior and uncomfortable. Humans are moody and unfair creatures, so next time, just let the negativity bounce off you, offer a smile, be smart and stay above it, it might not be meant personal. The other person clearly has his own stuff to deal with.

4. Stand behind your own values. If you really believe in something, you should show it and speak up. Remind yourself, why you believe in it. This is a hard one, because one has to debate whether it is worth the risk of not being accepted. But why betraying oneself? Of course, views can change, but when they do, it's a process of learning, not taking over other people's words.

5. If you don't ask, the answer will be no. It can be scary to dig into a rather uncomfortable question, but you are the one who has to live with the consequences. This aspect scares the heck out of me because I prefer to get what I want on my own and I am sure other people can agree.
Maybe it is just somehting with our pride, that we don't want to appear helpless. But it is not the same if all you want is to get closer to the solution more quickly and easy. No need to always take it the complicated way. If you don't even try, you deny yourself your own possibilities.

6. Don't forget to be a learner. Nothing and no one is perfect. Constantly gaining new experience and knowledge, no matter how pleasant or hurtful life can be, it will only shape you and make you richer as a person. The emberassing or hurtful stuff that has happened yesterday is going to stay in the yesterday. Today is another day, another chance to take and nothing can hold you back from that.

It's been one and a half week of ups and downs and I was not able to squeeze much time for photographing more content, therefore the lack of a post last week, which I am not proud of because I'd rather have spend my time on more activities I am passionate about, but that's another update.
I thought I left those insecurities behind back in my high school days, but apparently, it will always be part of my thinking, mind and life. And I accept it.

But that doesn't mean that there is no right to stand up and not get over those doubts again and again. There are moments that are going to drain me, but when I recharge, I can do it from within. Never forget your own uniqueness, endure that bad situation you are currently in, make the best out of it, it will be in the past. Stay confident.

Happy Monday!