Saturday, June 4, 2016

Art of Silence

Do you see me,
when I see you 
smile and tilt your head to the sky 
echanting me, enclosing my mind
I saw you first
and looked away
I'm yours.
 
A glow
runs from your hair to your feet,
you're harmonizing,
butterfly rebellions swaying in my stomach
The art of silence
when I don't know what to say
Do you see me?

Everytime you pass by,
you lock me into your eyes
Nice to meet you,
next time I'll say it for real
I looked away
See you soon, you don't notice
I'm yours.
 // thoughts of  an enarmored //







Yes, although this time styling and story are not realted to each other, I was inspired by a little love story, so I wrote a song // poem? // something.
Stories start way back even before the first conversation. Hope you enjoyed!

How did your love stories start? I'd be really interested in reading, if you want to share.

Have a lovely weekend
xx


Saturday, May 28, 2016

About Runaways

Free as a bird,
it's the next best thing to be.
Free as a bird.
Have you ever had the urge to just escape? To just be like the bird from that Beatles Song? Somehow, these lines kept on swaying around in my head.
Hardships, disappointments and struggles come and go in life, so do peoples' feelings become immune, numb.
Do what you want, create what you want - a privilege that is limited in this world.
The envy for other privileges, aesthetics, materials and dreams all those desires we wish to fulfill us flow into a swirl of nothingness.

How tempting can be the thought of just being a bird, flying through the nightsky and escaping all the shit of reality that somehow seems to go wrong every single day.



The countless times of wishing to not be stuck at that road of life, being somewhere, somebody else in the end always lead me to thank the Almighty to have given me the energy of moving on.
Why would you want to be a bird if you can be someone significant? Dream, but don't dream yourself away. Make, create, perfect. Keep your eyes on the things that give you energy and take the responsibility. Breakthrough the uncomfort. Don't escape till it's too late. Don't procastinate too much.


I think these reminders are important from time to time, when to do lists, thoughts and impressions become accumulated to the point one just wants to wipe everything from the table. No matter how to look at it, the only one who can sort through all of that is oneself.

With that said,
Happy Saturday!
xx









Monday, May 16, 2016

Rusty minds and illusory vibes: Styling Stories



How she feels? - Restless.
 All those times, staying still,
stuck in the rusty cages.
What she seeks?  
Escape.


She has the world right in front of her.
Drowning waters, endless deserts, city lights.
She's high, high on life,
golden air, glooming sky.




Days linked seamlessly,
all those times she's content.
She thinks so.
Stuck inside her rusty mind.




Dress - Free People     Rings - Brandy Melville, Flea Market     Gladiators - Coolway

She didn't realize how much she missed
the grassy freshness and nature's gifts
Can't remember the last time
she heard nothing but the river sound.


I was always wondering how humans can do the same thing every day. Get up, making breakfast, go to school, go to work, be home at 5. Meet friends, go out, have a social life, adapting to the self-destructive claws of society's routine. Blending in, "living" your life.

How can someone not become crazy? Big dreams become fanatasies, fantsies become...well, they are just ideas, thoughts. Thoughts can't be erased, can't be tracked, they stay as long as one lives.

But what exactly does it mean to be living?

Living for the weekends, where you actually have time to do stuff you want to do?
Making money? Social approval? Finding happiness?
How do you find happiness when you realize that everything you do will fade anyway? The things you create, the things you write & say?

Becoming too accustomed to smooth routines makes you rusty.
No matter, what happens, never lose the sight of what you love.
Easy-peasy, ha!

What makes you jump out of the bed everyday?








Let's conquer the week!

xx











Thursday, May 12, 2016

Monthly breather: 5 things

While quite some time has passed, I apologize for my absence due to some personal stuff going on, I am not able to fully coordinate my time. Nevertheless, this state is soon going to end. That's a promise I make for this blog space as well as for myself.


So my friend, why not take a step back and think about the question "What have you learned from spring time?". 
I'd love to read some creative answers, here are mine listed in a length of 5 lessons I learned in April spring:

1. April is a beast.
If the weather forecast tells you it is going to rain, don't bother to take your umbrella with you, the crashing wind is only going to ruin it. Instead, enjoy the smell of rain on dry concrete and the fresh water drops cooling the humid air.

2. When you go to a concert, choose one that is open air.
Sunset Sons were in town last month and it was rad. But what was not rad was the hot stickiness in the overheated concert hall.


3. The bicycle wins!
Ditching the car and get on the bike instead was the best decision.

4. Sunlight is energy.
On sunny days I received a lot more smiles.

5. Always have a tissue with you.
Although I love spring, this is the season of pollen flying around in the air and a runny nose is always uncomfortable.


What was your favorite spring moment?

Have a nice Thursday!

xx


Sunday, May 1, 2016

Styling Stories: Sunset Child

What is your first memory?
An endless chain of firsts is what we encounter everyday, but the very first is what will be lost forever once forgotten.
Time is fleeting, yesterday is replaced by today. The future will be the present.

 
I am an April child.
With dawn comes the sun and a storm of changes.
I close my eyes.
The first time I open them I see the trees resisting the mighty claws of the wind.
I close my eyes.
The hard splashes of the rain are dripping on my skin, but when I open my eyes all that is left is the glistering surface of the rough river stones.
I close my eyes.
When I open them I see the last clouds dancing in the fire of the sunset.
I am standing still.
The sunset is an ever changing constant of each day. The time of reflection and mindfulness.
With that I close my eyes.






Skater Coat - Asos    Sweater Dress - F21   Knee Highs - Asos    Coin Necklace - Pull&Bear    
It's been a full week of a full to do list, that seems to be never ending and never to be ended.
Weekend has just been a good time to recharge again. I sometimes would love to be able to control the duration of time.
So many moments I wish to pass by, others I want to be everlasting. With that rush it's easy to forget the significant memories. This is why I love the sunset, it marks the end of the day and sums up every precious experience.

What time of the day do you like the most?

Happy First of May!
xx

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Styling Stories: Roses and Denim

Who are we?
We define us by colour, physique, abilities.
We are artists, thinkers, belivers, expressionists, each of us.
Young, curious, wise, experienced. Human.
I found my center.

Destination:  
I am me and myself.

The denim is rough from the adventures,
on the contrary are the fully bloomed roses swifting with the flowiness of the skirt,
their velvety surface repel the sturdy fibres of the jacket,
but the contradictional differences are all characteristic. Me.

 We are like little roses in a big shrub - each flower blooming with beauty,
seemingly the same on the exterior.
But every blossom, every swirl is different. Same nature, but never alike.
This is truly uniqueness.


 





 
 



Sending some positive vibes in the middle of the week.
Today was one of those sunny days where the sky was so blue and deep like an endless ocean without any cloudy waves that could disturb the sight. All I wanted to do was to sit there and feel the warmth on the sunlight behind my closed eyes for an eternity of five minutes. But of course, nothing lasts forever.
I am really looking forward to recharge my sleeping levels this weekend.

What are you the most excited for this week?
Weekend is almost here, hang on !
xx




Monday, April 18, 2016

Monthly breather: March of Confusion

Hello loves!
A little late with my monthly breather, but right now I actually do have a moment for a breather, so better late than never ;)

 If there is one word that could sum up my feelings in March it would be confusion.
Coming back from Asia after over half a year I found myself being in that awkward state where seemingly not much has changed at home, but at the same time a lot has changed.

I was confused about finding my own daily rhythm.
I was confused about work.
I was confused about my future. ( Actually I think this is something I will always be confused about..)

And eventhough I was not expecting a completely new perspective of home, that's exactly what I got: little mini revolutions in daily life, that sometimes gave me the feeling of being someone still living in the past. That feeling of people moving on while I was still the same Me six months ago was filling me with excitement and curiosity when looking at the future, but also the fear of being left behind.

But I changed as well.

Homesickness while being at home was truly a very new experience, I was missing the amazing people I met during my time in China, the feeling of the truly truly rushing city, the mentality and just the feeling of finally belonging somewhere. It's weird because all of these things I have here at home as well. What I heard about experiences other friends made when they studied a year abroad was that the worst part about coming "home" again is the slump of emptiness you will fall right in and now I really do understand what that means.

I am always scared of new beginnings and in March I was picking up my passion for dancing again. If there is be something that makes me jump out of bed in the morning, it would be the latest dance class, these are the moments during the week where I can just forget about the long hours of working and dissatisfactions of everyday life. And although I have plenty to improve again, I still love every second of it.

Closing this monthly breather, March is the beginning of spring and with that I look forward to new exciting memories.

Currently, I'm working on my next Styling Story and I am never sure if this kind of stuff is interesting to read about, but since this blog also has its function of sort of a little diary, I guess it's fine.  And if you have come so far reading this, I really appreciate it!!


What do you look forward to in spring?

Have a nice week!!
xx


Monday, April 11, 2016

About self-doubt and why you should be more confident starting NOW

Lately I've been wondering about 
what the ties consist of,
that have been choking my voice and my actions.
Sometimes the head gets messy,
It's almost like drowning,
in the crashing floods of self-doubt.

Hello loves,

Something that has been on my mind a lot is the fact that I admire confidence. I really do admire those, that seem to know what they are doing and just rock it.
It seems so easy to walk through life, being certain about oneself and succeed at anything on the long-run. But during that process, self-doubt is a constant companion. It is hard to stay motivated when I know I'm not good (enough) at something or just being stuck and wanting to move on.
It is so contradictional to find confidence at the same place, where self-doubt originates, but the best way to stay confident is to draw the energy from oneself, so I listed some thoughts.

1. Break free.Embrace your own weirdness. You are you, unique and like no one else. There is a reason why we were created by the Almighty each person differently. Self doubt is often triggered by the environment. Break free from peer pressure, break free from society's pressure and back up yourself. Why wasting your time with holding back, if you act like your Original You, right things will fall in place naturally.When you are happy, you are confident.

2. Don't forget to care for yourself.
No need to say yes to anything just to not hurt the other person, he will understand. Sometimes you have to make that extra time for yourself. Experience things just by yourself and do things you love, any passion, sporty, hobby or activity. Creating self-love requires time alone. Get more comfortable alone. How do you expect yourself to feel confident in your own skin if you cannot spent time on your own?
 
 3. Don't forget that people are dealing with their own sh't.
There are so many situiations in the present, past and future, where other people make you feel inferior and uncomfortable. Humans are moody and unfair creatures, so next time, just let the negativity bounce off you, offer a smile, be smart and stay above it, it might not be meant personal. The other person clearly has his own stuff to deal with.

4. Stand behind your own values. If you really believe in something, you should show it and speak up. Remind yourself, why you believe in it. This is a hard one, because one has to debate whether it is worth the risk of not being accepted. But why betraying oneself? Of course, views can change, but when they do, it's a process of learning, not taking over other people's words.

5. If you don't ask, the answer will be no. It can be scary to dig into a rather uncomfortable question, but you are the one who has to live with the consequences. This aspect scares the heck out of me because I prefer to get what I want on my own and I am sure other people can agree.
Maybe it is just somehting with our pride, that we don't want to appear helpless. But it is not the same if all you want is to get closer to the solution more quickly and easy. No need to always take it the complicated way. If you don't even try, you deny yourself your own possibilities.

6. Don't forget to be a learner. Nothing and no one is perfect. Constantly gaining new experience and knowledge, no matter how pleasant or hurtful life can be, it will only shape you and make you richer as a person. The emberassing or hurtful stuff that has happened yesterday is going to stay in the yesterday. Today is another day, another chance to take and nothing can hold you back from that.





It's been one and a half week of ups and downs and I was not able to squeeze much time for photographing more content, therefore the lack of a post last week, which I am not proud of because I'd rather have spend my time on more activities I am passionate about, but that's another update.
I thought I left those insecurities behind back in my high school days, but apparently, it will always be part of my thinking, mind and life. And I accept it.

But that doesn't mean that there is no right to stand up and not get over those doubts again and again. There are moments that are going to drain me, but when I recharge, I can do it from within. Never forget your own uniqueness, endure that bad situation you are currently in, make the best out of it, it will be in the past. Stay confident.

Happy Monday!
xx

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Styling Stories: Cherry Blossoms and Sunlight Dwellings

Nature reawakens,
that she could sense the moment she set her foot on the slightly dewy field.
She took a deep breath, it was too cool to really heat her up,
but the freshness of the earthy air was fueling her with energy and warming her mind and soul.



Days filled with rain were still not rare,
but during the month of March even the rain changed,
with each drop seeping into the earth, roots would recharge,
it was as if she could feel the environment around her growing.

With days getting longer, warmness comes with more sun exposure,
she could only wanted to envelope herself into the untouchable blanket of  light.
It was as if the little streaks were dancing on her cheeks,
this is truly the first day of spring.



Cherry blossoms were already showing their heads,
she could only imagine the extent of their beauties, when fully bloomed.
In her fascination, nothing could really disturb that moment of satisfying yearning,
nothing but a whirlwind called life.














Photo Credits: The African Dude
The 5 year old version of me was already amazed the first time experienced the truly blossoming beauty of cherry blossoms and even till this day, that stage of fascination hasn't stopped. It's not only their stunning soft flowers that was causing me to never lose sight of them, it was also the fact that these delicate blossoms only bloom for a short amount of time. After that, their prior beauty would visually vanish the less flowers were on the trees.
The same happens to us: we only have short amount of time to display our full beauty. And by that I don't necessarily mean the fresh young skin without wrinkles till you are 30, I mean the beauty of happiness and satisfaction in life.
The difference to cherry blossoms are, that we do not bloom according to seasons, we bloom according to the sweet moments we make by ourselves. These moments won't last forever, which is why we should not waste time to be angry about something or somebody or overthink a certain situation. Just be YOU. Create your own happiness.

That's it. Happy last day of March!
 xx






Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Handcraftings: DIY Bohemian Hat Decoration

 
Blouse  PULL&BEAR           Hat of choice  Stradivarius
 

I really need to go to bed earlier, but today I told myself that I am going to finish this -even if it means staying up till sunrise! I really don't like to delay stuff on my to do list, but there was other work that needed to get done during daytime. Also, if you find any wrong typos in this post- bear with me, I'm already half asleep...


Hats and bohemian fashion really got me this season and I tried to combine these two in the tutorial. Some side notes:

- If you find your decoration "wiggling" around just secure the middle parts to the hat with glue or some stitches.

- You can use any material of decoration you want, it doesn't matter if it is lace, canvas, chains or even a strip of old fabric.
Be as creative as you like to with the project! The power of freedom lies in your hands (I know, sounds cheesy, but whatever)

- The necklace I used here was kinda selfmade, I replaced the chain with the fake leather ribbon, because I preferred the look. You could totally make your very own necklace with your own coins and beads!

- Another idea for a decoration would be to braid ribbons and use those instead or with the band. My hat already had the braided fake leather, so that was already done.

I just totally forgot to mention that you need needle and thread in the instructions..sorry! But you can totally glue the ribbon as well, if that's easier. Sewing the ends together should be a piece of cake though..seriously, those are maybe three stitches by hand.

In the beginning I thought about making a video tutorial, but seriously, this is so easy to make, I don't think it would fill a video..

But if you want to see some more Handcraftings , for example on the necklace or just a more detailed version let me know, I will work on it !

Hope you enjoyed it and it inspored you a little bit to get crafty ! And please send me your projects if you recreate this.

Love,
xx




Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Styling stories: Flowers and lights


When the days are cold,
a stern fist of ice seems to get a hold around her heart.
Her loneliness and her weaknesses are a burden,
it clenches her mind so hard that there's no room left for anything else.
She is a prisoner inside her own prison, built of her own voice and on bittercold days she seems too weak and the weight too heavy to fight.

But she is a child of the light, of the sun,
streaks of light illuminate her vision,
suddenly flood the room and warm her from inside.
It's too cold for the flowers to bloom - she thinks.
But really, it won't be like this for too long.
Her energy reawakens with every moment, the light touches her.
Soon the flowers will bloom - she knows.




Indian Summer Embroidered Sweater - Asos        Maxi Skirt - Brandy Melville      Hat - Market

Yet another styling story.. I really enjoy the process of writing these. With this one I wanted to express my feelings about past winter, I'm so looking forward for days filled with more sunlight!
Maxi skirts are great, even when it's not warm outside. And as a hater of pants (my favourite one just passed away), these win in comfort billion times!
I like, how the industrial feeling of the heaters, the little cracks in the wall display the coldness in the mind, something old, rusty, but still ongoing.

Everytime my insercurities are almost getting ahead of me, I try to think "outside the box". The doubts of the moment are often only little tiny stones on a long journey. Insignificant. But when you spend too much time on doing something - you think too much about it. That's what sometimes drives me crazy, but when I rethink about it some months later, all I can do is laugh about it. Good times will come. YOU will bloom.


How do you shake off your winter blues?

Have a lovely rest of the week!

xx